Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Not Ready

 On Monday Cory and I went to Kindergarten Registration for this cute little guy.  He was super excited and loved the attention.  Cory asked him if he was nervous to do the assessment and he rolled his eyes and said "No Way."  While we were there he asked me if he gets to go to kindergarten the next day.  He is READY!  Way more ready than me!  Do I have to send him?  Is my youngest really going to leave me? Is he really going to head out the door everyday with his big brother and go to elementary school??  I've always said that I would not be sad when my kids were all in school.  I guess I've gone soft.  Now I want some time back.  I want his skin to stay soft and squishy. I want to snuggle on the couch with him and hide under his blanket. 
 Yesterday I went to New Beginnings for Young Womens for this little girl!  She was also WAY excited!  She even got dressed up in a skirt I have never gotten her to wear.  She wanted to wear my dangly black earrings and she brushed her hair without me asking her to do it!  Before we even got there I could tell she was wanting to become a young women before my eyes.  She LOVED every minute of the night.  She was thrilled to be introduced and have them talk about her.  She told me she loved the speakers talk on hope and faith.  She loved the brownie, cheesecake, strawberry, whip cream dessert (all her favorites!). And most of all she loved talking to the two beehives that sat behind us at the end.  I watched her talk to them and I could see how happy she was. I wasn't prepared to feel so sad there!  I am excited about this new phase in her life.  I know she will love it.  But I am not ready for her to become a young women!
I hope she always wants to dance and sing together in the kitchen and be silly with me.  I hope she keeps laughing at me.  I hope she will always write me cards when she is happy, sorry and sad. I hope she always wants to spend time together 'just you and me."  Most of all I want her to keep talking to me!

So this week has found me a little too sad.  I know it's all cliche' to say I wish they would stay little.  But this week it's too much to see them change and grow up so fast.

16 comments:

  1. Okay, why do you ALWAYS make me bawl!! I just love you and this was such a sweet sweet post!! You do have some beautiful kids!! Connor is such a sweetheart and we miss him so much.

    As for Maddie, that made me cry too! I just love her. She is SO SO SO full of energy and life! She is beautiful and at such a fun stage of life. I wish I was there in Young Womans with her, but she has some AMAZING leaders!

    Thanks for the cry! I mean it, I needed a reminder of how fast the time goes and how lucky I am to be where I am right now.

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  2. Sam goes to kindergarten next year too. I'm having those same sad feelings.

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  3. Such a great post. Love the pictures.
    I can't believe how much we have in common right now! I am not ready either. New Beginnings was beautiful and sad at the same time. How did our girls grow up so quick?
    This next year we'll have to get together and cry on each other's shoulders while our babies are in kindergarten and our firsts are in {gasp} junior high!

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  4. You made me cry.

    I love that you dance and sing in the kitchen with Maddie. Lilly and I do that to.

    love the pictures too!

    Glad your blogging again. :)

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  5. i'm not ready for your kids to do those things either!! connor won't be at our beck and call, he'll be at school!

    your such a fantastic mom, maryann! you really are. your kids are so well behaved and just all around sweet!!

    i love being around your cute family!!

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  6. You took the words right out of my mouth! Isaac: so ready (emotionally)to be in school.
    Me: not ready at all!

    We will just have to take full advantage of summer!

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  7. Loved this post!! I'm glad I'm not the only one feeling this way. I have always planned my life but never pictured myself with no little kids at home. Not sure what to do with myself next year. My oldest in High School. The next going to Young Women's. The next is getting baptized this year and my baby is going to Kindergarten. We're too young for this. I never have been good at transition stages. You have a darling family Maryann!!

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  8. ohhh... I seriously miss having Conner in my Primary class! He is the best!

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  9. I felt the same way with Cloe @ her New Beginnings. These little girls aren't so little anymore.
    My baby turns 1 next month. I am having a hard time w/the stage that is approaching way too fast.
    Hope all is well w/you family!
    We miss you guys.

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